I got a new life, a happy life, but POOF

You suddenly pop up in my head

Totally unprepared and weak

I can't hold the tears back

Why ?

You're like the worst drug that I have ever fight for

and tried to get rid of

for so long time

you've been in my head

How could I ever get you out of me?

You can't really see that there still is a part from him

inside me

It's buried

The little part of him is so small

but still

it is there.

Deeply buried in my head, in my heart.

Like a bug of some kind

Like a virus

Like cancer

It will never really be gone

But you can hide it somewhere

hide it for a while

and still live a happy life

But when it shows,

you will pray for nothing else than it will disappear

But it wont

At least, so it seems.